What's family without father's love?
Hi all, this post is not gonna relate to all daddies out there as each and every one has different personality. Yes I'm gonna blogged about my personal life between me and my parents. To start off, here's the question, "do you guys prefer mom or dad?" Individuals has their own perspective, so I'm not gonna say who's right or who's wrong. I would definitely prefer mom over dad. And why issit so? Oh well.. Being a kid at the age of 5 or rather 6, I thought my dad was the best dad ever as he really dote me a lot and encourages me even though I failed some of my test in the past.. That moment, I hate my mom the most as she always nag, using canes to whack me, comparing results between me, my siblings and cousins. After I took back my results and the score doesn't met my mom's expectation, I would always take my result slips and persuade my dad to sign it. He'll give a pat on my head and encourages me to try harder next round. Someday, I don't know how she knew about it and when she saw the results, she was so mad and the "吃藤条" (caning) time begun..
At the age of 14 I realised mom wasn't that scary as I thought.. Turned rebellious at the age of 14 cause I met and went along with the wrong people but luckily I didn't went to the extent that I gave up on education. Not blaming my mom but to blame myself for being stubborn at the point of time that I demanded freedom. Back then, mom was upset because I got into lots of trouble and made her involved in my problems.. I actually did reflection for a period of time and I asked myself this question, "What benefits you after getting into trouble or rather turn rebellious?" I took some time to change myself and avoid lingering around with my same old thoughts. At that point of time, all I need was time and parents encouragements but then.... My dad change his view towards me and hated me till now. I have no idea whether he still cares or love me but all I could say is...... "Your view towards me had changed and you must be very disappointed in me when I'm at the age of 14. But I'm still very curious that... why are you showing all your hatred towards me even after I've change my attitude? Why aren't you showing encouragement like how you did before? What make you hated me so much? What have I done wrong? Why didn't you trust me? Why are you still having all those negative thoughts on me? Why can't you clarify things out before jumping into conclusion? Why must you ALWAYS misunderstood me? WHY WHY WHY?
These 4 years, been tolerating all his nonsense and I'm grateful to have my mom around, being my listening ear, advising me when I met difficulties and most importantly being there when I broke down. Even though at times she nag and being long winded, she's definitely better compared to my dad. I might not be a filial daughter towards my father but I'm sure that I respect my mom more than anyone else. Anyway, he doesn't have a place to stand in my heart anymore because he is not fit to be in there. My mom is all I need in life, someone carries me around for 9 months and pushes me down with all her energy, I love you mom. ❤
I only show respect to people whom I think is needed.
Respect people who respects you.
Readers who think that I'm unfilial than please kindly stop judging as you guys don't even know the exact story. This post is only a rough explanation of my personal life story.
At the age of 14 I realised mom wasn't that scary as I thought.. Turned rebellious at the age of 14 cause I met and went along with the wrong people but luckily I didn't went to the extent that I gave up on education. Not blaming my mom but to blame myself for being stubborn at the point of time that I demanded freedom. Back then, mom was upset because I got into lots of trouble and made her involved in my problems.. I actually did reflection for a period of time and I asked myself this question, "What benefits you after getting into trouble or rather turn rebellious?" I took some time to change myself and avoid lingering around with my same old thoughts. At that point of time, all I need was time and parents encouragements but then.... My dad change his view towards me and hated me till now. I have no idea whether he still cares or love me but all I could say is...... "Your view towards me had changed and you must be very disappointed in me when I'm at the age of 14. But I'm still very curious that... why are you showing all your hatred towards me even after I've change my attitude? Why aren't you showing encouragement like how you did before? What make you hated me so much? What have I done wrong? Why didn't you trust me? Why are you still having all those negative thoughts on me? Why can't you clarify things out before jumping into conclusion? Why must you ALWAYS misunderstood me? WHY WHY WHY?
These 4 years, been tolerating all his nonsense and I'm grateful to have my mom around, being my listening ear, advising me when I met difficulties and most importantly being there when I broke down. Even though at times she nag and being long winded, she's definitely better compared to my dad. I might not be a filial daughter towards my father but I'm sure that I respect my mom more than anyone else. Anyway, he doesn't have a place to stand in my heart anymore because he is not fit to be in there. My mom is all I need in life, someone carries me around for 9 months and pushes me down with all her energy, I love you mom. ❤
I only show respect to people whom I think is needed.
Respect people who respects you.
Readers who think that I'm unfilial than please kindly stop judging as you guys don't even know the exact story. This post is only a rough explanation of my personal life story.
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